life. blargh.

My dearest says I neglect this thing. I really do. But I never have anything interesting to say!

A few weeks ago, we went up to Vermont for a few days to stay with my cousin/best friend Tiffany. We went to Burlington, had ice cream, sat on a gravestone shaped like an armchair, I got my first tattoo....good times :D

RI had a huge flood. Like, really bad. Building 19 was underwater, so I am unemployed for an indeterminate amount of time. Everything is sanitized now, it took a while but I think it's done. Now the walls, floor, ceiling, etc need to be completely replaced. After all that, they'll be calling employees in to go through and get rid of damaged goods, get new goods, and restock the store. So. It's gonna be a while. I am currently on unemployment, but haven't seen any money yet because at least half the state was unemployed before the flood so of course now it's far worse.

But I am enjoying all of the free time, because I spend as much of it as I can with my lovely, amazingly wonderful boyfriend Alex. Being with him is my favorite thing in the whole world. There's nothing like the feeling I get just being close to him, being held by him, kissing him....I am a sap. But we all know that by now. I love being a sappy dork. I am sappier than a maple tree :)

My mother is a bitch. Not a new fact. But even though I have no money, she still tries to get it out of me. Hello, I've got about $10 to my name, stop trying to mooch off me. Also, she tried to throw me out because she thought I was having sex. I am an ADULT. Who pays rent. And it's none of her fucking business (or, my fucking is none of her business?) what I do or don't do. She needs to learn to let me grow up. And to shut the hell up about everything.

Ugh I cannot wait to eventually move out. I vow to never talk to my parents again once I am free.

Goals:
~get my permit/learn how to drive

~exercise more (I have been walking a lot lately, since I hate being stuck in the house with my lazy asshole of a father)

~drink more water (Alex will probably yell at me if I don't!)

~read more. I've been neglecting books lately, since there's a nifty invention called a TV that I haven't used in a while.

~clean as much of the house as I can (even though it's not my mess...even though my mother says it is)

~try not to let my parents get to me (hardest thing on the list, by far)

~accept and like myself for who I am (I'm trying, really I am...I'm better than I was a year ago, at least)

~save more money (this is tough, considering I now have no income)

I want to be driving and moved out in the next 6-8 months. I wish it could be sooner than that, like today, but there's waiting periods for licenses and crap, plus I have no money to get a car/apartment/a ride downtown on the bus.

It is extremely hard to stay positive in this situation, with shitty parents and no income and no money to help pay the bills, so we may lose the house (or the car again).

But I am trying. To be positive, to survive, to not go insane.

And that's all I can really do.